It had been almost 7 months since my last writing on this blog. A lot of have happened ever since. Life has never been the same. A child would be conceived and be given birth in that period. For the past months, I've been thinking on how I wanted a husband, children of my own which I can call home. But, it never happened. I'm not sure is it a good thing or bad thing. I'm sure God has a plan for me.
It took me a lot of courage to end it with PL. Finally, thanks to Rose's wonderful assistance, it is in the process. Am I not willing to let the relationship go? Speaking to him a few days ago, I've asked him is it a good or bad mistake on what we have done? He laughed it off. I guess he never thought that I would did what I did. In fact, I wasn't sure if it's a good or bad one. Sometimes, I wish he would tell me to come back. We know that it ain't going to happen. Anytime soon, that's for sure. The past has hurt me and I've learned to be a better person.
To SJ, the past months it had been nice knowing you. We both
know that this is not going anywhere. It's not what I'm looking for.
It's not what he can provide me with. It's the ugly truth of reality. I
try not to think about your existence, but I'm just lying to myself. My
life was without you before and I need to move on. I know that you have a
life without me, and you'll be fine. To this, I dedicate Drenched for you my dear. You are a great lover, but I have to let you go (though I didn't want to).
