Thursday, May 8, 2014

I am all in His Guidance



This week has been raining tremendously. So many things had happened that I just let things happen on its own and remind myself that things will be better. Good things are coming my way. 

3 weeks more to end my employment is definitely not fun when you think about the financial distress situation that I could be facing. My heart and soul is calling Europe for a 3 weeks’ vacation. Yet, my situation is like walking on water for not knowing what will happen after. I’m learning to accept expectations can decrease my self-confidence and self-esteem. Although, I am much happier now, there’s a part of me not wanting to leave. I am already missing my colleagues more than you can imagine. I am hoping that people around me are praying the best for me.  I asked myself will I be happy to stay on and work there. As much as I want to, there’s a part of me that tells me regret no further. I was unhappy with the pain in the butt. So, what do I have to lose right? 

The job that I thought I will be qualified didn’t come my way. Surprisingly, I am much calmer to accept the fact that I am not what they are looking for. Part of me asking, are they afraid that I’ll be taking over their position or there’s really something wrong with me during the whole interview process. I would like to know. No one seems to be able to let me know. I am searching and looking around and pray that the good thing will come my way. 

While on the way home last night, my car got into an accident. Luckily, I do not suffer from any injury. The car panels on my driver’s side were scratched all the way from the front to the back. I was so naive when it happened. I didn’t want to care less about the damage as I thought the damage was a minor issue.  Later on, I found out it was quite bad. The other car, a Honda Civic’s bumper was fallen apart. I thought they were fresh graduate that just started off from college. I was wrong. The guy keeps on apologizing and I was like things could have been worse. They were really honest though I left the scene without getting his license details and car plate number. Duh... how naïve I was during that time till I think back what’s happening. He could actually give me a fake phone number and details. At the end of the day, we were into agreement not to file a police report and he will pay for the damage by sending it to repair. Can you believe all this happened within 24 hours? We sorted out that it will take several days to get it done and at the meantime, his sister was also being nice too. I believe in doing good and you’ll be treated good as well. I trust people as I want to be trusted. 

Life is so fragile and unpredictable. We do not know what’s going to happen next. We need to stay calm and face what’s coming our way and make the best out of it. I feel calmer and happier. There will be situation that we do not know what to react and do, but we remain calm and let it at God’s hand. He will guide me to the best way. I shall no doubt on his decision. Perhaps, this is why I am happier now.

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